A Random Thought

Do you ever feel, that you will never be good enough for anyone?
Do you ever feel, that you will be left on the shelf while the rest of your friends find their other halves?
Seeing my friends one by one, finding their other halves scares me.
What if one day, they all start thier own family? And I'm still out there in the wild, searching desperately for my other half? What if I don't have a fated "other half"?
Been a "bro" to every single guy friend I have. Ironically, coming from an all-girls school. Sometimes, I just felt like I will never fit in to anybody's life. Like I am never a piece to somebody's puzzle.
Falling head over heel for someone oh so frequently is bad. Falling for "A" few months ago, moving on so quickly to someone new. Seems legit since I'm looking for "the right one". But isn't things going way to fast?
So sick and tired of being the one who give all the time. I want to be at the reciving end too. I just want to fall in love with the same person every single day. The same person who can accept me for who I am. And, I need to not be so easily influence by all my friends. Telling me whoever is a good guy doen't mean that I have to fall for him. It's time for me to learn to control my emotions.